Roaring 2020
Dec. 31st, 2019 11:38 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
luckycricket33I was nearly too lazy to do this but then I dragged myself to Dreamwidth instead of making a twitter thread because "I do it every year so I gotta" but: I didn't do an entry for 2018 into 2019!! I came home from work last year and got invited out for drinks! I don't even know what I would've said about 2018. Lost a relationship but gained a new job and with it the big move back to the city I'd been dreaming of since... 2016 but in a larger sense 2015 but in a larger sense 2013. I am here on my own power, and I can stay.
My goals going into 2019 were to take full advantage of that. I really wanted to apply to grad school and settle into my art side hustle and start dating and see friends more and dye my hair. As is the case with most to-do lists, I accomplished about half of those. So even though I'm a little disappointed because I just remember the MAGNITUDE of what I wanted to stuff into this year, I'm happy that I did objectively go a little hog wild. My hair has been gray-blue-green-blue this year. I threw myself the combined party with my two friends who share my birthday that I always secretly wanted. I registered as a business and have a website, online store, and stickers and prints of my work that I took great delight in sending to my friends. I went to a free summer park concert that was on tv, I flew across the country by myself. I indulged. It was good.
The time for more self-discipline is coming for me, I feel. But not in a way that makes me less happy than I was this year. In a way that gives it support.
Everyone is also doing a decade retrospective. My decade started in high school; here's my takeaway since then. I have been as sad as I was in high school later as an adult. But I had been happy too. I knew, in the subsequent spells, that I had been happy before and I could be again. And I would be again. And I can be more, still.
My goals going into 2019 were to take full advantage of that. I really wanted to apply to grad school and settle into my art side hustle and start dating and see friends more and dye my hair. As is the case with most to-do lists, I accomplished about half of those. So even though I'm a little disappointed because I just remember the MAGNITUDE of what I wanted to stuff into this year, I'm happy that I did objectively go a little hog wild. My hair has been gray-blue-green-blue this year. I threw myself the combined party with my two friends who share my birthday that I always secretly wanted. I registered as a business and have a website, online store, and stickers and prints of my work that I took great delight in sending to my friends. I went to a free summer park concert that was on tv, I flew across the country by myself. I indulged. It was good.
The time for more self-discipline is coming for me, I feel. But not in a way that makes me less happy than I was this year. In a way that gives it support.
Everyone is also doing a decade retrospective. My decade started in high school; here's my takeaway since then. I have been as sad as I was in high school later as an adult. But I had been happy too. I knew, in the subsequent spells, that I had been happy before and I could be again. And I would be again. And I can be more, still.
