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 I've conducted a canon review (well ok I wasn't planning to but then i just did anyway because I got sucked into it) and here is a list of canon characterization about Falin that I can use when writing!!! needless to say spoilers for the entire story, well beyond the anime and into the final chapters and some extra material.

in no particular order:
-Falin was ostracized within her village because adults found her magical abilities creepy. Laios states that even though he didn't get along with people for similar reasons, Falin has always had a stronger spirit/thicker skin than him, and may not have paid it much attention.
-Falin's magic rod looks like a little streetlamp which I, streetlampfucker69, love
-Falin and Laios share a room because space is hard to come by on the dungeon island. It's shaped like an L and Falin's bed and storage is in the deepest part of the room, at the expense of Laios's sleeping area, which has the most atrocious feng shui vibes I have ever seen. The door practically opens into the head of his bed.
-Falin is drawn in canon in kind of flowy wide robes that emphasize her wide body shape, but in the extra sketchbook material, Ryoko Kui indicates that Falin feels the most comfortable in flowy pants and gender neutral outfits. There's a little sketch near some of these modern AU outfit studies where Marcille is lamenting that Falin is wearing men's clothes. There's another set of outfit studies nearby with girlier outfits, but Falin is visibly less comfortable in them. HOWEVER BUTCH YOU ARE MAKING THIS WOMAN YOU CAN GO FURTHER
-On a similar note, Marcille laments a sketch from the artbook where Kui draws Falin with a really short pixie cut. This one can be a bit of a practical concern - a mage's hair can be used as material for spells - as well as Marcille's aesthetic preferences. Marcille tends to like very girly and overly ornamented things, regardless of like, whether it's people or monsters or talking about romance. I feel like this isn't really apparent right off the bat because her own appearance is toned down and practical compared to like fucking SAO or whatever other genre conventions we have for fantasy. I guess she does do elaborate hairstyles on herself every day but like I mentioned for mages that's a practical concern.
-The red dragon that merged with Falin makes a clicking noise in preparation to ignite its flame breath and I think it would be such a cool trait for Falin to retain post-canon. like when she's pissed she clicks her tongue at you.
-Falin's power first manifested as seeing ghosts and like dispelling a ghost in a graveyard
-Falin's magic uses the gnomish system. Marcille's is elvish, so it's a little bit different, but they're similar enough to have both taught Laios first aid healing
-Falin shares some of Laios's interest in monsters.
--as kids, Laios mentioned he wanted to turn into a monster and fly out of the village. Falin said she wanted to do the same as him, although he said she couldn't copy him. I kind of love this moment because it makes Laios and Falin feel like real siblings; people like to emphasize how Laios is protective of her, but when he was little, he was a little mean to her sometimes too, which is what! families! are! like!!! I think he kind of pushes her into going to the graveyard to see a ghost with him too and she's not as into it
--Falin is excited right after revival when Laios brags about having eaten monsters. Marcille says she was "afraid of this happening"
--Falin followed Laios to the dungeon instead of staying at school
--Toshiro states that he fell in love with Falin after seeing her study a caterpillar with adoration instead of being scared of it
-Falin tripped on the stairs as a child and has a small scar on her chin from the incident
-Falin tells Marcille that even if she might hurt some people, she wants Marcille and Laios to survive, before teleporting them out of the dungeon
-Falin was not confident or used to teleportation magic prior to that
-Falin was the better healer in the adventuring party. By contrast, Marcille is talented at healing wounds very fast, which results in pain and scarring
-Falin also cast better protection spells, although the one we see onscreen was dragon-enhanced
-Falin likes sharing meals and food
--Laios tells Marcille that Falin considered her a good friend because she kept going to Marcille to share lunch when they were at school
--Falin tries to get Thistle to share a handful of berries with her, even though her dragon body was probably drained of energy at that point. Thistle eats all of the berries himself.
-Falin has enough social awareness to ask Laios to clean himself up before meeting Marcille for the first time, wanting to impress her.
-Laios states that Falin is mentally tougher than him and mentions that she still keeps up letter correspondence with their parents
-Laios and Falin were both engaged when they were younger, but the engagements were broken off, probably when they left their village
-Marcille and Falin have at some point shared a bed, in magic school. Falin was "smaller" then
-Laios and Falin's family owned several hunting dogs throughout their childhood. Kui's notes state that the dogs respected Laios, but viewed Falin as below even dogs on the social hierarchy.
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 long story short ok well. long story long. some friends were despairing about how the ao3 top ship stats for the 2023 calendar year are even more depressingly womanless than usual. And I said, "hey, to make it to the bottom of this top-50 ranking, it looks like all you need is around 1500 new ships in a year. We should all just pick one, tell everyone we know to write 3 fics a day for the rest of 2024, and game the system to get more yuri on the list. this seems unrealistic especially because i know i'm not going to be contributing that much, and the f/f ships that tend to become popular don't fit my aesthetic sensibilities, but after brainstorming a little bit I think Farcille has an honest chance to make it up there with the advent of the new anime this Friday.
(Currently on the evening of 1/2/2024, the ao3 stats are: Dunmeshi fandom tag has 154 fics. 38 are tagged farcille. they are far and away the biggest ship; the next up is kabru/mithrun with 15! It's the overall fandom volume that seems to hold them back.)
The issue isn't the popularity of the pairing, but maybe that they and the story itself are... too complete? I'll be honest I don't really have an itch to fill in the gaps because canon was well executed! and the manga, which was recently completed, has been popular for years with artists. but I, personally, can imagine myself doing marcille character studies, and it's not hard to write falin into that. So that's what this is gonna be! a running list of topics! 3 a day is a joke but maybe 1 a week? "that's the equivalent of A THIRD OF THE EXTANT FICS IN THIS FANDOM sarah" don't let your dreams be memes.

The other part of this project is, as my much more strategic friend shannon pointed out, nominating farcille for every possible applicable exchange/promptfest, and maybe doing a ship week as well. current plans:
-femslashex - this is always around like september right?
-drum up a hype train for femslash feb, even tho this in an individual thing artists tend to do
-...find a general panfandom kinkmeme or something
-an any-time bingo card

THINGS FOR TO WRITE, ME and any others, any idea overlap makes number go up
-marcille's greatest fear re: falin, the entire mission of the manga
-marcille's attachment issues in general re: following falin to the island in the first place, not wanting people to exit her life
-marcille's greatest fear - MDZS sunshot campaign AU, reviving Falin
-hmm... hikaru ga shinda natsu AU? "came back wrong"
-witch hat atelier AU BRIMHAT MARCILLEEEEE ugh ugh ugh it's SOOOO
-good that normal videogame logic makes you think that she's a "white mage" for casting a "life" spell, but in-universe it's an incredibly fucked up visceral dark magic thing and she dgaf
-something something fire emblem nosferatu spell is dark magic in awakeyfates but holy magic in fodlan. mannn would marcille trap falin in the body of some unsuspecting... well... it's the reverse... trapping the human in a dragon. lol
-lab partner terrarium stuff
-something abt how falin was hungry bc dragon tummy big, human mouth small, remembering that feeling afterwards
-vignette about being meat-horny tbh
-modern au breakup fic themed around resurrection magic from canon where they just try to fix it back to normal every time but it irrevocably degrades the relationship
-making a nice pie :)
-marcille is too clingy and falin asks for space and someone else (laios?) has to tell her like. hey she's staring down the barrel of 900 years without you
-(deep aggrieved sigh) modern nonmagic au where i transpose my abandonment and demands for attention onto marcille......
-something like thank god laios's selfishness saved us all. it would have been bad if it were me.
-"there's too much stuff I wish for" - marcille and adhd
-something with snails
-k...kettlecorn... wedding
-something about the physicality of marcille knowing what it feels like to be full human for a day
-..................perio-
-that scene with the hand bones - they put 2 of falin's fingers on backwards and marcille blames herself later
-honestly it's amazing she can be dispassionate enough to put bones back together like it's a job i wonder if this is how doctors are.
-pet death fic
-family intro fic
-marcille elf jail
-marcille old age reminiscing
-unrequited farcille where it's JUST abandonment issues and projecting a la portrait of the artist
-being jealous at school perhaps falin pov
-falin featherfic wingfic lesssgoooo baybee
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 so the group chat was like "hey these two could be fun together and they have a single digit ao3 tag,
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"No famous wife yet, ehh, Sendou?" Aiku teased. "No girlfriend, even."
 
"Nngh," was all Sendou managed in return. He tried to nip at Aiku's lips with his teeth in retaliation, but Aiku's hands bracketed his face, holding his head in place. Aiku squeezed and his cheeks squished in.
 
Sendou's hands were balled in the front of Aiku's shirt. He thumped Aiku's chest a couple of times. Aiku relented, and Sendou immediately crashed the lower half of his face into his scraggly beard as Aiku laughed. He snaked his arms around Sendou's head instead, close around the ears, triceps resting on Sendou's shoulders, caging him in.

Sendou barely landed three kisses on his actual mouth before Aiku started up again. "Poor Shuto," he said. "In his mid-twenties with no beautiful girlfriend so he's stuck here with me-"
 
"Quit it," Sendou managed, breathing hard. "I'm- I'm on top."
 
"Hell <i>yeah</i> you are," said Aiku, as Sendou shoved him over on the couch. <i>There's my striker.</i>

Sendou's hands were heavy on his collarbones, the full weight of his upper body concentrated down onto the bony heels of his wrists. Aiku didn't mind the discomfort. That was part of what it meant, to have another person there. Aiku moved his hands to Sendou's waist, then wrapped them around his back and pulled him down, 
 
Aiku wondered what ideas would end up in Sendou's head if it were deprived of suggestions that other people put there. 
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Read more... )-flayn
-lorenzie

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chores
claude tries to exit the conversation after spending the whole day together
period cramps wont work on me again claude
no i get them
no you don't
why would you know
i know felix
felix isnt recruited
she gets quiet
he feels guilty for bringing it up so even though it makes no sense he lets her have it
feather next day
 
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"Kiss me 'til I'm stupid," he said, and Ingrid, by nature, was always ready to comply.

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I'm publishing this fic in my journal piecemeal instead of on a site where it will get a following in the event it requires me to add content warnings later on, hi! It may move to ao3 once I know enough of what happens to warn adequately for it at the beginning, and if people don't think it's too bad! If you pick this up, you may need to stop reading later or tell me I have to learn something before writing about transness and names. But this part doesn't have that yet.

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Hello hello hello!

Like a whale evolving away its legs and returning to the sea, I, a person who was never present for lj-era fandom, am going to publish this fic in installments in my own journal instead of putting it on a more accessible site. I do not know what is going to make it into this fic and did not want to risk people on ao3 being tricked into following along a fluffy modern AU only to have it very likely turn into uncomfortable gender/name stuff. Please only read if you are okay with following along as I figure out how to write this, or are okay with dropping the fic later on if it becomes bad and not, idk powering through something upsetting for the sake of finishing reading. "Why are you even including the bad gender stuff then" because it's real and it happens and part of it is figuring out real life and I don't want to explain that to a thousand strangers looking for a popular ship fic just yet.

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FE3H many thoughts post edelgard c+

 

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 felix/anyone, subchapters workshopped in the comments, all of them will start the same bc i realized it's applicable to like, anything this dumb boy does

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"You put too much faith in Opera, Felix," she says. "Operas are dumb."

"What? No, get off it. You're just saying that because you know how they're made."

"These characters are morons!" laughed Dorothea.

"Operas aren't dumb! There's this biting social commentary as the first song in almost every one. Always something about crests, nobles, marriage, wealth, the political divisions of the day-"

"Yeah but the second song," said Dorothea, "is always when the two main love interests meet. Usually for the first time, and they instantly pledge their lives to each other. The first song and setting can be as smart as it wants, Feli, it just makes the rest of the show look dumber by comparison!"

Felix frowned. "It's stupid, but that's because all feelings are stupid. Maybe if love wasn't like that in real life, it would sound less dumb."

Dorothea's mouth hung open as she stared at him.

"Fe- honey, no. That isn't how love is in real life."

Confusion crossed Felix's face.

"Felix? That's not how- is that what you think love is actually like? I know the rest of us must seem stupid to you but-"

"That's not..."

"Felix?"

His face had started to heat up and his words all seemed to stop right above his tongue. Felix stared into the empty air above his salmon toast, unable to focus on Dorothea across the table.

"If it's not us... have," she dropped to a stage whisper "have you ever been in love?"

Felix met her eyes with a helpless expression.

It was just like an opera. Felix could not remember a time in his life where he had both met the person he was in love with and had not been in love with them.
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 maybe i'll add a dungeon to the sewers for stuff that "no one asked for"

felgrid pre-canon may have inconsistencies bc i havent finished game

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I was nearly too lazy to do this but then I dragged myself to Dreamwidth instead of making a twitter thread because "I do it every year so I gotta" but: I didn't do an entry for 2018 into 2019!! I came home from work last year and got invited out for drinks! I don't even know what I would've said about 2018. Lost a relationship but gained a new job and with it the big move back to the city I'd been dreaming of since... 2016 but in a larger sense 2015 but in a larger sense 2013. I am here on my own power, and I can stay.

My goals going into 2019 were to take full advantage of that. I really wanted to apply to grad school and settle into my art side hustle and start dating and see friends more and dye my hair. As is the case with most to-do lists, I accomplished about half of those. So even though I'm a little disappointed because I just remember the MAGNITUDE of what I wanted to stuff into this year, I'm happy that I did objectively go a little hog wild. My hair has been gray-blue-green-blue this year. I threw myself the combined party with my two friends who share my birthday that I always secretly wanted. I registered as a business and have a website, online store, and stickers and prints of my work that I took great delight in sending to my friends. I went to a free summer park concert that was on tv, I flew across the country by myself. I indulged. It was good.

The time for more self-discipline is coming for me, I feel. But not in a way that makes me less happy than I was this year. In a way that gives it support.

Everyone is also doing a decade retrospective. My decade started in high school; here's my takeaway since then. I have been as sad as I was in high school later as an adult. But I had been happy too. I knew, in the subsequent spells, that I had been happy before and I could be again. And I would be again. And I can be more, still.
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I've seen a couple posts in the last month on social media about how people are ok with angst "as long as it has a hopeful or happy ending" or breakup fic of their own otp "as long as they get together in the end" and it got me thinking about my own angst preferences! Personally, I love sad endings! I hope that by sharing why, I'll convince someone out there to rethink the criteria by which they judge how genuine vs contrived a sad fanfic is. But at the same time I'm like, one person, and no one is obligated to enjoy what I think makes for Good angst, even after reading this. My examples will be either extremely vague or high school literary canon because I don't want to alienate readers by using specific characters too much, and also because I don't keep receipts for fanfic I didn't enjoy.

Anyway, what I like out of angst is showcasing the characters' personality flaws. Sadness should come from the characters making poor but plausible choices, rather than the author engineering their circumstances to force them into being unhappy.

This is why some of my absolute favorite fics are about the main ship breaking up for good. The tension comes from their own dissatisfaction, unwillingness to communicate, or compulsion to run away from commitment. I know sometimes a breakup will be written in simply so that a competing ship can be shot down and the fic's main ship take center stage. This seems a little vindictive. But to me, reading about the slow decay of a relationship I actively ship is satisfying because it's still focused on the character interactions I care about.

In contrast, I don't really go for death fic. I've noticed myself noping out of multiple fics in the last week where the main characters were grieving a non-canon character death or serious injury. To me, these things were written as "circumstances" - they make the focus characters sad because they would make anyone sad. Also, this might be a personal thing, but I prefer to mine angst out of canon and polish it rather than manufacturing the scenario to get the desired emotion.

A neat summary of my feelings on character-driven breakup angst versus contrived scenario angst is Wuthering Heights! Spoilers for Wuthering Heights, if you care about that. I enjoyed reading the whole thing with Cathy and Heathcliff destroying their lives and those of everyone around them because it had a lot of acting out, making intentionally detrimental choices. The stuff that happened with the second generation characters pissed me off though, because it felt like Heathcliff was "arranging the circumstances for maximum misery" and the personalities of the people caught in the tragedy by then didn't matter.

Speaking of tragedy, let's talk about unresolved or unhappy endings! One of the arguments I've seen for pushing a good ending even to angst fic is that to do otherwise teaches readers hopelessness. But in general, I prefer for character flaws to result in consequences, and I find more hope in watching the characters walk away from a situation they've fucked up than trying to chase some sense of atonement or closure.

I dislike hurt/comfort almost to the point of it being a squick. From what I've seen, hurt/comfort usually means either an external scenario hurts one member of the ship and the other person comforts and reassures them; or else person A in the ship says something to hurt person B and then comforts their partner. The former bothers me because, as I said above, it feels like the scenario was created with the goal of getting a specific emotion or going even further into having the comfort-giver recite a textbook set of assurances. The second type of h/c is a clash driven by personalities, and should appeal to me more, but I'm not keen on the idea of forgiving someone immediately for truly hurtful words or actions. Hasty forgiveness feels, to me, like training one person in a relationship to be a doormat.

Sometimes, the "consequences" of a poor decision means the characters affected stop talking to each other on a regular basis (breakup fic). I like reading when characters run away from each other like this, becasuse I believe seeking "closure" with an ex is really just a way to keep the wound open. Some people consider having your characters hurt each other without making amends to be sadistic, or having them part ways after ruining their relationship to be unsatisfying. But I like the idea that people move on, either resolving to do better in their future relationships or finding other ways to be happy, rather than pestering an old partner for "the real reason we didn't work out" or whatever. When comfort and forgiveness are treated as a conditional, not a certainty, I appreciate the generosity of receiving them much more and also feel less anxiety about the times I do not get them.

Anyway, that's why and how I love sad fic with sad endings! I totally understand if you don't feel the same way. There are all different ways to find hope in your fanfic. However, I really wanted to post a defense of my own tastes. Sometimes I feel like those slightly-viral posts on social media imply that causing characters pain like this makes someone a sadist, or that being squicked out by comfort of all things means I'm fucked up as a human. I don't believe either of those things about myself!

I'm going to tag this post with my dear gifter letters because it's heavily comprised of my preferences. I acknowledge that there are ways to do even the tropes I've said I dislike in a way I'll enjoy (for example, I've read fic with a non-canon character death that was a good mess of character study in coping/denial, and also a romance with the ghost). Any buddies wanna chat, talk examples, or help me refine my tastes in the comments, feel welcome! I'm especially concerned that I might be mischaracterizing all of hurt/comfort or not giving it a fair chance; if you have a different definition of h/c or an idea of some h/c I'd like after gaining insight into my love of sad endings, please share! Thanks for reading!
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Hello dear confectioner! Thank you for signing up!


First, here's a bit about me: )


and now individual series/ship prompts:

Persona 5 )

FE Fates )

Shokugeki no Soma )

bnha )

Thanks and I'm sure I'll love anything you create!!
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Dear Gifter,

Thanks in advance for what you are about to make!

First off, here's an idea of my general likes and dislikes:

- motifs that are special to me include stars and (dont judge me) economic references
- you may have noticed a bunch of gen/non-shippy requests; I love mentorships and admiration and, even in the things I ship romantically, the idea of characters drawing strength from each other
- if you're planning on gifting art:  I love funny faces and costume swaps
- if you're planning to write: i love reading detailed vignettes
- For this particular exchange, I have a slight preference for keepin' it PG-13 and below, just because of the way I ship most of these.

SERIES PROMPTS:

Chihayafuru:
- I'd love it if you could work an appreciation for the sounds of poetry in somehow. References don't have to be specific, because I'm no scholar of Japanese literature myself.

Suits:
- Ok one of my favorite things about this show is the costume design because I think it speaks volumes about where each character comes from and what their socioeconomic situation is (already made it or trying hard to move on up). If you could pick your favorite pair and make something where one of them teaches the other how to dress or shop for clothes for some situation, I would love it...

FE: Fates:
- I've only actually played Conquest to completion but I know enough about Scarlet and Ryoma to. ahahaha.
- If you're doing Camilla & Soleil, I did pick out something in their support where Camilla is Soleil's mother: Soleil says something gay and Camilla's line is "you take after me." I'd like to see them talk more about romance, bisexuality, and royal duties. Also, for it to not have incestuous implications.

Pokemon:
- There can be some meaty rivalries in this series, so if you want to do something about being jealous of or respecting one's rival, I welcome it
- Also: it would be real cool to see how any pair handles teaming up for a double battle

Prince of Tennis:
- "Inui tries not to have feelings" and/or "Tezuka tries not to have feelings" sums up most of it, huh

RGU:
- Juri is my precious daughter and I will love anything where Someone Is Nice To Juri
- Anything where a character looks at another character and sees a parallel to their own story/past/mistakes
- Preference for canon universe
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Last year I wrote something cute and optimistic and naïve, and I think even then, I probably knew it was just for show. And I considered writing something this year tearing that down, and dropping pretenses, but you know what. You know what? Acting okay in the face of everything may be what I, we, need right now. 

This year I started being more honest about general attitudes that made me feel bad. I was able to talk one-on-one with several of my friends about why some things felt wrong and others didn't. I've noticed recently that I'm less vague, that when I go into a guilt spiral I can get out of it faster, that I'm better able to see the granular data that swings a decision one way or another for me. (Thank you, if you're one of the people who talked out specifics with me. You probably saw me go back over the same ground two weeks later and two weeks after that all year long, but you did help.)

I think, from what I can remember, whether it was in my letter or not, that reducing my anxiety was one of my goals for 2016. It was all-consuming for a while last year. I didn't really do much on a conscious level to curb it, but looking back, it got done anyway? At the very least, the problem I wanted to be free of is not all-consuming anymore.

So, the problems from this year that felt all-consuming to me? They're just next year's goals.
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2016 BR2 Prompt List
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im going to make an effort to ACTUALLY USE the banners i get this year so. this one's by underscored.

KICKIN OFF THE PERSONAL FILL LIST WITH
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Thank you

2015 wasn't the easiest or most successful year of my life, but I loved the way I felt through most of it, even through periods of bitterness and deep self-doubt.

I still think it's jumping the gun to call myself an adult now, to put it... optimistically... but I know what one looks like. An adult is someone who takes the train to places they're unfamiliar with without getting someone else to look it up for them. An adult makes plans to meet their friends for dinner, and follows through. An adult orders a graphics tablet off Amazon without asking or telling their parents, using money they earned, dammit. An adult knows when to cede their ground quietly to keep the peace in a group, and knows when to stand up and refuse to sacrifice their own comfort and safety for someone else. That's the kind of person I hope to be (and very soon, since I graduate in 5 months).

Maybe you don't feel like that's you, yet, either, but I wanted to let my mutuals who are older than me know that even if you're not perfect at this stuff, you've shown me that it's possible at all, and you inspire me. To the young beans: I remember you too! And a lot of why I want to be better at this whole "real life" thing is to be strong for you.

To the people who witnessed me freak out about ex-best-friends for months, I want to give a special thanks. You stood by me when I was hung up over someone else leaving me and I don't want you to think that I value you any less than I valued them. And I still do feel that even though I'm not sure I'd want us to go back to being on speaking terms, I don't regret being friends with them for a single second, and I appreciate the good times we had. Anyway, watching me obsess over these relationships that turned sour for so long would be a strain on anyone, and it's not something that I would blame anyone for jumping ship for, so it's just. It's like an extra gift to have you here, you know?

I think of my life with the heady optimism of the people who studied growth theory. Sure we've got the business cycle and frictional unemployment, but look at how standards of living have improved over the decades. The future has always been a bright place for me. I hope to see you there.
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